Illuminati Girl Gang Vol. 4 illuminates all those teenage feelings.
Founded by Gabby Bess, Illuminati Girl Gang is a girl-forward Internet institution, rounding out its repertoire with the recent release of Illuminati Girl Gang #4. This latest zine aims to showcase female perspectives in art and literature through short stories, essays and poems, with the most recent volume aptly titled “A Catalogue Of Internet Feelings.” Maybe I feel connected to this issue because of the name or maybe it’s because I’m a 20-something-year old girl and it’s all so relevant to my life, but either way, IGG is making me feel feelings. Even in just the way it starts off with a piece by Mary MacLane:
I am not good. I am not virtuous. I am not sympathetic. I am not generous. I am merely and above all a creature of intense passionate feeling. I feel - everything. It is my genius. It burns me like fire.
It made me think that maybe feeling is my genius too.
One section entitled "Loneliness & Other Poems" by Mira Gonzalez particularly stood out to me as well. Mira describes the inconsistent feelings of both wanting a connection and craving loneliness, but really just having feelings of being wanted. Her work brings attention to our basic human instinct of belonging. However much I may like being alone, curled up in bed on my computer, I still long for that connection of another human wanting to be with me.
I have planned my life around fetishizing loneliness
each day i allot myself 5 hours to quietly stare at a computer screen
trust me when i say that every hour will become shorter
until hours don’t exist anymore
i grow my hair and nails long in order to incrementally decrease
the physical distance between my mouth and your hand
Honestly, every piece inside IGG is so full of emotion, it inevitably gets to you. It’s the girl talk you have with your best friends late at night, but in this perfect magazine. The subjects covered in this issue range from everything you might talk to your best friends about: friendship, lost love, reality TV, sexuality and longing. It’s got it all. So maybe one night you don’t have to have girl talk with your friends. Instead you can just stay in and read this and let all of your emotions well up inside of you in the privacy of your bedroom. That’s what I did.
THIS POST WAS CONTRIBUTED BY:Katie Walck is an art doer, cat lover and believer in aliens. She spends many hours online trying to find the center of the internet/universe. Result: Still looking. Follow her on twitter @katiewalck.